Now, I never claimed to be otaku. I am far from that description. I have never cosplayed in public. Never have I had a pseudo crush on a fictional character. And I have never liked Bleach or Dragonball Z. But, lately, I've been tossing around the idea of perhaps pursuing a love interest in that general range of people. There's a few glitches here and there. Otaku guys and girls are a bit.....different, for lack of a better word. I have been to my fair shares of Anime-cons in my life. And I have seen my fair share of people, guys and girls. The thing is, many of these people like anime just because it's anime. I, for one, don't like anime because it's anime. I like anime because it's art.
What's the difference, you ask? Well, that's a bit complicated too. Anime is the broad spectrum. It includes everything, the good and the bad. Now, art is a little more refined than that. There is nothing artistic about lolicon. I think that is a very scary path for someone to be on. Images of Chris Hanson walking in. "Why don't you have a seat over there." You get the idea. Now, the actual images in lolicon can, in fact be seen as art. Not all of it, but the general design of it. I'm sure the company had many a meeting to refine the look of the 12 year old heroine of the series. That's art. But, the subject matter tarnishes anything that might be considered artistic. It's just pandering to some peoples ideas of lust. That's gross.
Off the subject a bit here. Now, the idea of dating someone who is into every anime just because it's anime isn't what I'm looking for here. I want someone who understands the painstaking hard work it took to make something out of nothing. To get a design, follow a story, and finally finishing an image into a character's world.
I may have rambled on a bit here. But, what do you think. Is love an easy thing to find within the difficult lifestyle of the otaku? Should I have stayed away from such ideas? Or, is it, in fact my own personality that I'm trying to over compensate in order to find happiness? It's a big pain in the keester if you ask me. I've been a loner for so long, I just need some guidance in my life. Maybe I'm just being too fickle for my own good.
In short, have any of you tried to fit into a group that's not exactly what you really are in order to be accepted? Be it your high school clicks or group of co workers. Is it worth it? Or should I just say Fuck all that and let them come to me? That would be easier, but, honestly, I've had my fair shares of disappointing relationships in my life thus far. Those that know me personally know exactly what I mean. For those who don't, sometimes the break up comes with a few actual breaks. Won't go into details, but you get the gist.
Pretty sure I missed my mark here, but I just had to rant a little. Sorry if it seemed a bit preachy. And, I'm really sorry if anyone takes this personally. It's just my life. I'm just having a hard time living it sometimes.